Awake in Pain...While the World Sleeps (well most of it)

I had a hard time coming up with a title for this post, because I know that I am awake in pain quite often. Lately, I have not been in this kind of pain. It feels like my mouth and throat are burning. Or like thousands of little men are waving their razor sharp swords around, slicing every bit of flesh they can find. The pain is so intense that my eyes are watering with tears. Not the tears from "I'm actively crying," but tears that happen automatically when your body is experiencing something painful. Almost like when you are cutting onions and you cannot control them. I want to put my head in a pillow and scream at the top of my lungs. God it hurts so bad. I don't want anyone to have to experience this pain, but I sometimes wish that everyone could feel it so they can understand what I am going through every day. It is so difficult. But I always try and put on my happy face.

I am currently taking pain medicine, a kind that dissolves in my mouth, and it is not quite kicking in yet. Even when it does, it will only take the edge off. It will never remove the pain entirely. That is definitely one of the difficult things to handle. I am on a lot of pain medications, and even with that treatment, I still experience pain. The high level of pain that this disease causes cannot be completely removed by even the strongest of pain meds. On a scale of 1 to 10, otherwise known as "The Pain Scale," 1 being the lowest....I am at about an 8 right now. When pain meds kick in, I will probably be at around a 3 or 4.

I wish I could be at a 0. This week I went to the doctor twice. Once I found out that I have achilles tendonitis, and today I found out that I have lymphadentitis. Lymphadentitis is from a small sore I have on my wrist which is causing my lymph node in my right underarm to swell up. It is extremely painful. My immune system is fighting correctly, which is a good thing, But I have to take 5 days of antibiotics. For the achilles tendonitis in my right ankle, I need to do stretching and ice twice daily. It is always something.

Going to go try and go back to sleep. Hope everyone is resting peacefully. Thanks for reading.